I had another really good day! I feel like I am healing quickly. The burning sensation in my chest is less, and the range- of -motion in both arms is improving.
I had a friend over this morning who is also fighting breast cancer, we had the best time talking and connecting. God and cancer have entwined our hearts-I love you, Nanc!
I was treated to a pedicure this afternoon by my friend Keeli. IT WAS SO GREAT to do something girly with her. It was relaxing and conversation so meaningful, as it always is with my Kee! Loved it.
Tonight is family movie night. My friend, Karma, is ordering Italian food to be delivered for our dinner.
I took some time to read through my journal the other night, and it was so cool read back over the last year and see how God prepared me for the fight I had coming up.
There was a page that I had written while sitting in church last spring, long before I knew I had cancer. We had just finished singing a song in church with these lyrics:
Since I am so sick
Since I am in need
This song must have spurred me on to write, as I wrote the lyrics out in my journal, and then just kept on writing while sitting there in church. I don’t remember writing this, but found it very interesting, reading it 10 months later. It expresses my heart and how I have felt lately!! Thought I would share:
An utter submission to His ways.
A sprawled out, head down,exhausted and limp
Nothing left of me.
Empty, spilled out
Core exposed, broken.
What is left?
A hearts desire to be filled only with you.
A raw, child- trust, that you will hold my exposed heart,
for you are good, and know how to make us like You.
Pride gone-no room for it.
Piece by piece you restore & redeem
Come Lord, come quickly.
Put me back together, but break me completely first.
Do your redeeming work.
Give me eyes to see
A heart that trusts
YOU are the answer, the only answer.
I am sick
I am in need
I have no healing within me
BUT-YOU are my help and my redeemer.
Come quickly, Lord.