diminishing fear, finding my courage, living this out “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9
What I Dread?
next months Zoladex shot
What Has Surprised Me?
how much fear I still battle with fear of the unknown
What I’m Thankful For?
What Melted Me?
the videos my sister sent me from my niece and nephew
What I’m Wearing?
workout clothes to motivate me to walk and yoga
What I Wish Was Different?
the way hormone cancer is treated. 2 sweet friends with mets who are terminal.
What I’m Hungry For?
salted caramel cake pop from Starbucks
What I Ate Today?
not much yet. a cup of tea. a cup of coffee. a glass of lemon water. steal cut oats. a spoonful of brownie batter. ;P
So that is what is up with me.
I sure would love to know what is up with YOU! Choose a question and leave your answer in the comments!
The most helpful time to count gifts was when I was going through cancer treatment. I know during that trying time it helped immensely to focus on the blessings in life. I even got my girls involved and we together we looked for ‘treasures’ to count. The good even in the bad.
When I become mindful of all of the wonderful things there are to discover in a day, it changes me. It changes my attitude, my heart, & my perspective. It is hard to have a bad day when you are looking for gifts to write down.
I love having and using tools to help this process. The camera in my phone is one such tool. I often take photos of things I see as blessings, big or small, and store them on Instagram. I call them ‘Captured Life Tidbits‘ –they are just all the ‘goodies’ of life that I find beautiful. I have also used the notes app in my phone to list gifts, but I found I’m more successful when they are written on paper.
I’ve been thinking a lot about listing the gifts and being faithful in keeping track of them day by day. Because it has been on the forefront of my mind, I was delighted to find the perfect tool for listing all the wonderful tidbits of life.
I am a huge Moleskine fan, and have over 10 Moleskine journals that I have written in throughout the years. They are a well-made classic. I know there are so many cute journals out there, but I’m a pretty simple girl who loves plain & classic. I picture how a journal will look lined up on a bookcase, and I always end up grabbing a simple Moleskine.
I’ve always bought the hard cover journals, but lately I’ve been crushing on their soft cover journals that come in a package of 3. I keep them in my bag. I use my phone note app for a lot of things, but for certain things (like my Christmas list) I like having a paper journal to write in.
It has the perfect amount of space to list gifts each day. The new 2015 journal gives you a few days before the new year to start, which I have taken full advantage of.
I will pull it out of my bag during the day when I am at home, and have it in a central location or close by to jot down a gift when I notice one. I will also take it with me in my bag for on- the- go gift listing, but if I forget to grab it, I use Siri to help me list the gifts while I’m on the car or out and about. I then grab my journal right before bed and transfer any lists of gifts that i mad during the day on my phone. It then is right there by my bed when I wake up, ready for me to find my perspective for the new day.
Can you see why I need something that is well made and durable? This book will be by my side and on the move all year!
So there is my plan.
What do you think?
Have you ever counted and listed the amazing goodie- tidbit gifts of life?
It has been too long since I posted about all the gifts that life brings. The last time was almost a year ago and I find myself sad that I have not been recording all the good lil’ bits of life that has happened this year.
Honestly, it has been a long, rough year. One of the toughest yet. BUT…God. God has been very near and faithful & has brought and continues to bring our family through so much. I will be sharing some of that journey in the coming year, but in the meantime, how about some gift counting with me?
It is almost 2015 and I am excited to start counting the gifts again. I stopped at #1075 and I’m ready to keep on counting. I have a fun plan how to do just that and will share it with you very soon! In the meantime, here are a few amazing gifts I have found by scrolling through my Instagram feed from the months of October & November.
#1075 – #1110
~my 13-year-old Colsie who is not too old to trick -or-treat yet. Her fun sense of style.
~a light-up pumpkin give to me by my Mom. Her knowledge that I love anything that twinkles.
~ an amazing cake baked for my birthday by my Avery girl
~a family trip full of magical memories
~laughter and playfulness
~the joy of Butterbeer in Harry Potter World
~vacationing with cousins. How little ones around multiply the smiles and laughter.
~daughters who photo bomb. My handsome husband’s smile.
~a newly discovered, God-given talent.
~fancy, smancy restaurants. Photo proof that my daughter has wonderful manners when most important.
~how Epcot makes education fun
~Bam! The experience of getting attention from 4 waiters. The awe we felt when they placed our meals down in unison.
~an elegant breakfast with my elegant daughter.
~her beauty inside and out
~palm tree reflections
~a beautiful, huge Christmas tree
~new glasses so I can SEE the beauty clearly
~a working washer & dryer
~another homemade Thanksgiving Day banner made by my Avery
~a table full of family
~aunts who love their nieces and nephews
~a mother-in-law who does my dishes without me asking
~seeing my little niece and nephew enjoy the same legos my girls enjoyed for years.
~having them in my home
~my husband relaxing, getting a holiday break from work
~a beautiful lake to walk around.
~how nature and exercise is an amazing form of therapy
Do you find yourself asking this question of our God?
Do you find yourself just in the pit of pain and hardship, wondering when and if it will ever let up?
If you have been there or if you are there now, I shout it loud.
This fallen world that is not our ultimate home is full of disorder, pain & suffering. This is not how it was meant to be, and someday all will be restored. Until that day, I want to grab on to this:
HE. CARES. FOR. YOU.
God’s got your back, Beloved. He is for you. He sees your struggle, hurt and pain. He sees and promises to bring good out of it all. There will be release. There is hope. It will get better.
In the meantime, join me in looking for His care. It is all around us you know.
The past month or so has been a doozy for me and honestly there were days that were pure suffering for me both physically and mentally. I hated every minute of it, but in the midst of it, I knew God still had me. I knew this because He has brought me through so much already. When I look back, I see it clear that He has used pain and suffering in my life to bring about what matters most. He has used it to change me. He has used it to show me how desperately I needed Him and the hope that the suffering of His Son brought.
So in your pain, I encourage you to hold on. Grasp hard to what is true.
YOU ARE LOVED. YOU ARE SEEN.
Hold on, even if it by that teeny tiny pinkie. Raising your hand in faith, even in the midst of slipping, is obedience. Faith the size of a mustard seed can be miraculous when offered to God. You may feel weak, with only the smallest of fingers left holding on; a lonely, scary feeling of losing grip & falling, but guess what? In your weakness He is strong. He is your strength. His grasp, even in the slipping, is enough. He’s got you. His grip is gentle and thorough and enough.
Let me encourage you to ask for eyes to see the smallest glimpses of this God who loves us so. Look for the beauty in the pain. It is there. Focus on that bright red leaf that falls, dying yet beautiful, a reminder of seasons and how all things will be made new in time.
Find your thankfulness, even in the pain…especially in the pain. Thank Him for even the smallest of things when you can’t bear to look up for anything bigger.
Count them with me?
1. The taste of coffee in the morning.
2. A smile from a stranger.
3. A soft pillow to lay your hurting head.
5. That shirt you are wearing.
It might seem mundane and not worth your while, but just do it. Start listing the gifts. There are so many. Join me. I’ve stopped counting blessings and I miss the way it changed me and made me see how He cares. It will also change you. Thankfulness in the midst of pain will change you.
This change might not happen right away, but keep at it. Let us count together, claim the promise that He cares for us, hold on with the smallest of fingers & open our eyes even to the smallest of blessings.
Let’s count, change, and see together.
In turn, we will start to feel what we know is true. Sooner rather than later, we will feel His care.
Will you join me & list a few gifts right here and now in the comments? I’d love to hear of the things that you see, for they, too, will change me.