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So Long Last Year, Welcome This Year – Five Minute Friday

Five minutes to write on the word: Welcome.

Write–don’t edit–just 5 minutes to be in the moment–

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Go:

These words, these songs of JJ Heller’s, they speak my heart, they lift my head. 

Goodbye 2014

I say goodbye to last year, 2014.  Good riddance.

It was a year of struggle, of mental tug of war, of hormones switched on and off by monstrous needles jabbing each month, of watching those I love suffer and some of them lose everything.

Still much to be thankful for, I grasped at those thankful moments all the while sinking in despair. At the end of the year I willed myself to list my thankful, sometimes it felt like that list was the only pathway to reality & truth.

2014. You were a hard year.

 

Welcome 2015

With you comes a fresh start, for His promises never change and He makes all things new.

There is still suffering and sweet friends waiting in anguish on test results and others with stage 4 diagnosis & those damn monthly needles in my stomach whose thought of them makes it churn. 

But. As sweet JJ Heller and her handsome husband sing, 

I am not focusing on the ‘cracks in the walls or the times that I fall.’ 

I WILL NOT.

Because:

*It’s all becoming so clear
There is no use living in regret
Let’s fight a good fight
Train our eyes to find the light
That makes this year the best one yet!
Starting right here

I will not live in the dark room.  Not when my saving Savior is wooing me to the light room.

Todd & Amy

The Man That I Love

And for the man that I love:

*This year
I plan on thinking less of “I” and “me”
I resolve to think of “us” and “we”
This year
I can’t wait to see what good will come
To feel alive instead of feeling numb
This year

How?  How can I say these things with such certainty and without looking back? How will I run to the safety of the light room?

By welcoming truth.

The truth is, I have someone who will (in the words of another beautiful song by Heller)

*Love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become

I open my eyes from looking at all the despair,

I will lift my head & run to the light room and a God that says:

*I will give you the love 
The love that you never knew

I come out of the room, fully known, fully loved, whole & true; with a love so familiar, but at times I never knew.

So, to 2015 I say “Hello & Welcome.”

 

Stop.
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*All words in italics are words from “This Year” & “What Love Really Means” both songs by JJ Heller.  
Her music has been a place I run to in the hardest of times.  I just adore her and her amazing smile, cute bangs & realness on her Facebook page.  What a gift she is & what gifts she has!
Happy to be linking up with 5 Minute Fridays.
  • Sue January 10, 2015 at 8:10 am

    Stopping by from FMF. I can so relate to your reflection on a difficult year. I feel like 2014 was the first year I didn’t have a year like that for the past five or six years. I have come to the point where I view each day as a new beginning (because a year is so long to wait), but that new year truly is a place where we (and everyone around us) can see a clean slate and a new beginning. I hope that your 2015 is full of love, laughter and much more comfort.

  • Sarah Lowther Hensley January 9, 2015 at 2:53 pm

    Yes! Welcome the new year…the new day…the enduring hope. -Sarah (Stopping by from Five Minute Friday.)

  • Trisha Carter January 9, 2015 at 1:45 pm

    I really liked your post!! You are an overcomer!! Welcome to 2015, the year of greatness. Your greater is coming!!! Visiting from #fmfparty

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