Sometimes things just drop in my lap, beautiful things, and I have no choice but to share them.
As I woke up today pondering that it is Monday, which means for me here at New Nostalgia, it is the day to list the gifts, there was a feeling of heaviness in my heart. In my personal life, right now there are so many gifts that I feel like my heart could burst. It is a wonderful thing not taken for granted. Pain in my own life is minimal right now, but in those surrounding me, those whom I love and even those whom I am just barely know, I see pain. I hear need.
I tell my story, and it seems to free those up around me to tell theirs. This is one of the best gifts given to me, that one would share deep. I treasure these gifts.
~A lady at church, with fear and tears in her eyes, tells me of scans, tests and the hell of waiting for test result.
~A story of a baby lost, the pain it wreaks in a heart and a marriage.
~Another story, one of depression, a dark hole that sucks the life out of a being and leaves those around feeling helpless.
~A beautiful friend, whose beauty can cause me to stumble, cannot see it.
~A mother, whose given love and her life to two precious foster girls, fears the very real idea of losing them. Court dates are coming, she asks for prayer.
I sit before my computer, feeling heavy. I ask God for clarity as to what to write. I start up my Spotify account, and before me is a recommended CD called “All Sons And Daughters.” The album design and song title catch my eye. I click on it. It is exactly what I needed to hear today, what I must share.
If you have Spotify, click this All Sons & Daughters – Reason To Sing to listen to song. The sound is a bit better than the above video.
And all that seems to matter
Is that I don’t feel you anymore
No I don’t feel you anymore
I need a reason to sing
I need to know that You’re still holding
The whole world in Your hands
I need a reason to sing
And I hate everything I know
If this waiting lasts forever
I’m afraid I might let go
I’m afraid I might let go
Oh Oh Oh
I need a reason to sing
I need to know that You’re still holding
The whole world in Your hands
I need a reason to sing
Will You sing it over me now
Oh
Your peace is the melody
You sing it over me now
Oh Lord
Will there be a victory
Will You sing it over me now
Oh Lord
Your peace is the melody
You sing it over me now
I need a reason to sing
I need to know that You’re still holding
The whole world in Your hands
That is a reason to sing
~my home decorated. Home decor given to me from a dear friend. Old to her, new to me.
~late night vulnerable chats with a friend
~music. A reason to sing.
~community. Relationships. Hearts shared. Pain shared.
~great blood test results. A healthy body.
~a full silverware drawer. My dad who reads this post, chuckles to himself, then surprises me with a trip to the store to choose a new set. I smile every time I open my drawer. My girl exclaims “what are we gonna do with all of those forks, spoons and knives?!”
Ree
January 23, 2012 at 8:25 pmLOVE LOVE LOVE this. And All Sons and Daughters was what I ended up buying after that “what should I use my iTunes gift $$ on?” discussion on facebook. LOVE. Thankful for your heart, Amy.
Craig and Bethany
January 23, 2012 at 11:54 pmI love the last one and the post it links to. The way you use so many specific examples is so endearing and make me think we could be friends.
Amy
January 23, 2012 at 4:24 pmLove the list. Especially the full silverware drawer (and how it came to be that way). Thanks for sharing
Ashley Haupt
January 23, 2012 at 7:14 pmOh, I love story about your dad, too. So sweet! I remember no forks when we were growing up, too.